他有一头黑发，略显凌乱，就像一根根坚硬的钢丝。他不修边幅，穿着黑色上衣，紧抱双臂，在房间中徘徊。在这里，他翻看那些陈旧的历史，打开收集的资料，一次次陷入沉思，目光炯炯有神。
北四环就在小区南边，被装点一新，都市化的喧闹和繁忙，激流般冲荡路过的人群。从三元西桥往东进入曙光里小区，在狭窄的通道中，存在低矮、破落的临街小店——红砖房，石棉瓦，烟熏火燎的门脸，成都小吃、修理铺、美容店和糕点房。在这些小店的对面，正矗立着新建的几栋高楼大厦，阳光下闪着蓝光，威风凛凛，气势逼人。
这一切都奇怪地糅合着，就如外表光鲜内部溃殇的人那样，倘若揭开华丽的外衣，里面不仅仅有虱子和跳蚤，还有流脓的血胞，发出恶臭。可是，有几个人会这么做，会主动揭开，或者允许被提示，被旁观？
1993年，他读高一，还不懂事。他在潘家园看到了文革的报纸和漫画，充满猎奇心理，但越看越迷茫，越看越知道这段历史的重要性。在那些人名中，“遇罗克”震惊了他，人竟然可以这样独立思考问题。于是，他开始着手收集有关遇罗克的资料。他家住房山，周六日4、5点起床，冒着风雪，转车到潘家园，天色正亮，又兴奋又激动，省吃俭用，精挑细选购买。
这么十几年过去了，他收集了10多本资料，又建立了相关的博客，还与遇罗克的家人见过。
收集历史，为了反思历史，为了避免重蹈覆辙。他倒不认为自己偏激，提供几种不同的观点，要去对生活有所包容，要对生活充满新鲜感，要从不同方面感受生活。他工作了近6年，第一份工作，一口气签了5年——会计，目前仍旧做会计。在接下来几年内，就该顺理成章，结婚生子了。
而他在这种平淡的生活中，努力追求自己所要的思想。平时骑着28自行车，载上女朋友，在北京胡同里窜行，去听各种人文的讲座，去和不同的人交流。这样，他的生活才不至于平庸、苦闷，被压抑的思想不至于太痛苦。他说，人应该过一种有尊严的生活。
时间：2008年04月13日
地点：曙光里小区
摄影：阿三
文字：阿三
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He had a shaggy mine of black hair，standing on his head like strong steel wire .He was lax about his appearance.In black clothes, he paced in the room ,arms crossed.Here，when he leafed through the ancient history and scanned the collected materials，he lapsed into meditation for several times,eyes still bright.
The north fourth ring road, recently reconstructed, was to the south of the residential quarter.The hustle and bustle of urbanization dispersed the crowd like tide. From San Yuan Xi Qiao to Shuguangli,along the narrow alley,there were low and shabby street shops with red brick houses, asbestos shingle,and dirty shop front like Chengdu snacks,repair shops,beauty shops and bakery.Opposite to these small shops，there stood a few newly-constructed buildings,lofty,grand,and intimidating，sparkling blue in the sunshine.
All was merged together strangely ,like people who was glamorous outside but rotten inside.If you open their fabulous coat,you will see there were not only lice and fleas but also festering sore.Whereas,how many people would reveal all this and permit it to be reminded and watched?
In 1993，he was a senior 1 student，unsophisticated.In the Panjiayuan Market,He read some newspaper and cartoons about the cultural revolution roused by interest,but the more he read,the more confusing he became and he was getting to know the importance of this period more clearly.Among those names,”Yu Luoke”,took him by surprise.He was amazed that someone could ever think about questions so independently.Thus,He started to gather information about him.He lived at Fangshan .On Saturday,he would get up at 4 or 5 o’clock and changed to Panjiayuan market regardless of the snowstorm before dawn. With excitement,he would carefully select some things with the money he pinched and scraped.A dozen years having passed,he collected dozen reference books and established related blogs,and even met with Yu Luoke’s family.
He collected historical records in order to reflect over the history and avoid repeating the mistakes.He didn’t consider himself radical.A few different points of view presented helped one to open -minded and inspired in life and experience life from different sides.He worked for nearly six years.For his first job,he signed a five-year contract as an accountant.He is still in the profession.In the following years,he would naturally get married and have his own kids.
He was trying to pursuit his ideals in this flat life.He would ride a bike with his girl friend and wandered in Beijing’s alleys, listen to humanities lecture and talk with different people.In this way,his life could be exempt from and sorrows and boredom and the smothered thoughts would not be too much pain.He said,”People should live a life with dignity.
Time: April 13, 2008
Location: shuguangli
Photographer: A San
Text : A San
Translator: Carrie
