面孔记录56-anuo

2009年04月18日 @ 10:44:30   5 条评论 »

s56
她的某一个签名充满诗意:我已期待长久,看到你身披浓发站在大剧院临街的前庭。

这个艺术青年、80后、写手、文艺女、摇滚女和宅女,她不拒绝这些标签,并且纹身。看,她自中央戏剧学院毕业三年内,不去上班,埋头在家写剧本,一边写一边看电视——法制进行时,写着写着就要吐。她寻找不到自我价值,无味生活。她觉得哪怕去端茶倒水,缝补衣服,可能都比写剧本强。可写剧本还算赚钱,能养活她。

她一段时间闭塞,决绝出门。有不少同学朋友住这附近。他们了解她,买好吃的,放在门前,发短信说,东西在门口,你来取。他们不见面。她去清华校内的湖边坐着,看着黑夜中穿白衣服和黑衣服的人擦肩而过,如黑白无常,便觉有趣,哈哈大笑。

听从朋友的话,她去门前的酒吧。半年后,彻底混熟。音乐和酒精会刺激她。但她又一次次厌倦,锁在家中发呆,吃饭叫外卖。食堂还有一块钱一大碗的丸子汤,上面漂浮几个大丸子,便宜好吃。

屋里有两只猫。一只母猫,是某个摇滚巨星寄养的,安静蹲着。另一只还是母猫,叫屁股,四处跑动。这两只猫有时在屋里静悄悄地走动,神出鬼没。她的房子乱糟糟的,就如某个文艺片里的场景,到处都是书、碟片和有纪念意义的小零碎。

没有凳子。她半跪着打字。她坐在地毯上看电视,随意打滚,朋友们喜欢这里,杂乱但温馨。再过几个月,她去香港中文大学读硕士,念文化研究。她引用师兄剖析她的话,我就是爱慕虚荣,贪图享乐。

她用“酷”表达生活方式,就是酷酷地。我引用张楚歌词说,就是穿过你前面的人群必须潇洒。

时间:2008年05月04日
地点:清华大学内
摄影: 阿三
文字:阿三

面孔记录55-wing(en)

2009年04月18日 @ 10:42:15   4 条评论 »

s55

她是基督徒。但她不布道。她觉得自己不适合说教。她认为世界上的一切,冥冥中都有上帝在安排。安排,她重复很多次这个词汇。好与坏,都不用太着急。坏了,当作休息,好了,不必翘起尾巴。当祈祷时,内心中找到指引的方向,感到平静。

她是记者。东跑西颠,经常出差采访。她喜欢文艺口,没想到会跑时事政治。不谈政治,谈文艺,她喜欢文艺。喜欢电影、剧本,喜欢看文艺片,拒绝商业片。而现在也开始慢慢看一些。她的案头摆放几叠名片本,一些专业书籍,还有关于艺术类书籍。

她是女人。她有一桌子化妆品,零散摆着。她有很多衣服。她看碟片、逛街、和朋友聊天,以前争强好胜,现在归于平静。她是众多朋友的密友,许多人愿意对她倾述,她能理解她们。她也有点小小的情绪,只好和远在法国的朋友诉说。她也会失恋了去喝酒,逛夜店,猛花钱。

她划出横竖坐标,一方面是世俗,一方面是内心,她要去中间的最大值。调和,她会把这些巧妙的糅合在一起。并不矛盾,每个人都存在多样性,就如每个人手里握有一大把牌,就看如何出牌。

但她隐约不安。她要找到安全的地方,有点躲闪,不想面对陌生的世界。可是她又希望处处都有认同感。

时间:2008年04月27日
地点:甘家口大厦
摄影: 阿三
文字:阿三

Face 55—Wing
She is a Christian,but she doesn’t preach.She thinks she is not good at giving any sermons.She believes everything in the world is fated by God’s decision.”Fate” is a word she repeats several times.Good or bad,everything does not need to worry.When it is bad,we have a rest.When it is good,we do not gloat .When we pray,we will feel peaceful as we find the guidance which our heart gives.
She is a reporter.She had to travel around on business to interview people.She likes to interview people from art circles and never thought she would have report on current affairs and politics.Not politics but art.
She loves films,film scripts,films of love stories and no commercial movies,but now she started watch some commercial films.On her desk,there are a pile of name cards,some professional books and some art books.
She is a woman.On the desk are scattered cosmetics.She has many clothes.She likes ,shopping and chatting with friends.She used to be aggressive and enterprising,but now she is more quiet.She is the infante of many friends,the one whom they would like to talk to and trust her compassion.When she also gets emotional sometimes ,she would talk to her friends in France.When she is broken-hearted in love,she also drinks,goes to night pubs and spent money like water.
She draws a line:on one side is worldliness,and on the other side is soul.She wants to balance the two sides.She wants to mix and combine in an artful way.This is not contradictory,as everyone has diverse sides.Everyone holds a lot of cards and the tricky part is how to play them.
But she feels a bit uneasy.She wants to find a place which is safe,so she hides and is passive about facing the strange world.Nevertheless,she still wants to find recognition everywhere.
Time:Apr.27.2008
Location:Ganjiakou Building
Photographer:Ah San
Text:Ah San
Translator: Carrie

Face 55—Wing

She is a Christian,but she doesn’t preach.She thinks she is not good at giving any sermons.She believes everything in the world is fated by God’s decision.”Fate” is a word she repeats several times.Good or bad,everything does not need to worry.When it is bad,we have a rest.When it is good,we do not gloat .When we pray,we will feel peaceful as we find the guidance which our heart gives.

She is a reporter.She had to travel around on business to interview people.She likes to interview people from art circles and never thought she would have report on current affairs and politics.Not politics but art.

She loves films,film scripts,films of love stories and no commercial movies,but now she started watch some commercial films.On her desk,there are a pile of name cards,some professional books and some art books.

She is a woman.On the desk are scattered cosmetics.She has many clothes.She likes ,shopping and chatting with friends.She used to be aggressive and enterprising,but now she is more quiet.She is the infante of many friends,the one whom they would like to talk to and trust her compassion.When she also gets emotional sometimes ,she would talk to her friends in France.When she is broken-hearted in love,she also drinks,goes to night pubs and spent money like water.

She draws a line:on one side is worldliness,and on the other side is soul.She wants to balance the two sides.She wants to mix and combine in an artful way.This is not contradictory,as everyone has diverse sides.Everyone holds a lot of cards and the tricky part is how to play them.

But she feels a bit uneasy.She wants to find a place which is safe,so she hides and is passive about facing the strange world.Nevertheless,she still wants to find recognition everywhere.

Time:Apr.27.2008

Location:Ganjiakou Building

Photographer:A San

Text:A San

Translator: Carrie

面孔记录54-阿樊

2009年04月18日 @ 10:38:18   10 条评论 »

s54

阿三叙述。

倘若你要知道她近30岁,你定会大吃一惊,保持如此良好的身材、皮肤和心态,真不是大部分30岁的女人所拥有的。女人到了30岁,要么忙于家庭琐事,相夫教子,要么做“白骨精”,忙于公司事业,哪有闲心调整自我,想什么理想?

她有一副娃娃脸,总是笑嘟嘟的,两只眼笑成一条缝,不急不慢地谈论中医养生之道。她是江西人,在西安读通信本科,北邮研究生毕业后,在一家外企做研发工作,月薪近万,两年后辞职,只觉这不是所追求的生活。

她已经10个月没工作了,一直在家。但她很忙,计划着创业,不停地学习知识,什么管理、策划、营销、财务等等。她创业的方向是中医养生,案头摊开着厚厚的《黄帝内经》,密密麻麻地写满她的注解。她谈论中医很执着,但不会偏执到拒绝谈论西医。她说中医也需要发展,她想普及养生,让更多的人像她那样保持健康,延缓衰老,而不是等生病了才花大笔资金看病。

每天早上7点,她会准时起床,做一顿营养全面的早餐。从此开始了一天的学习,看书、学习网上视频、听讲座等,尽可能地吸取知识。除了学习之外,她还养成了一整套养生习惯,每天踩点走,到了那个时候该干嘛干嘛。睡觉前,她会练瑜伽,做一套自创的融瑜珈、舞蹈和太极拳为一体的健美操,据说,她还会按摩。以前她常熬五谷杂粮粥,现在这个地方比较小,不适合,不过她每天都坚持天然饮食、营养均衡。平时她就是这样孤单地渡过一天,但到了周末,她会找朋友聊天,聚会,逛街或者郊游。

她又要搬家了,从大北窑搬回到望京。

最近几年,每逢生日,她都会为自己拍一套写真。她很在乎自己的形象,拍照期间,不断地看镜子,梳头,也换了好几套衣服,力求完美。面对镜头,她笑呵呵的。

以下文字是我们不曾当面谈到,后来她补充的。
“每天作息规律是,早上8点左右一定要吃营养早餐,中午12点左右要小睡二十分钟左右,下午3点到5点,要多喝水,做运动,晚餐7点之前结束,并且不多吃,晚上11点就要睡觉。

墙角斜靠着装在琴套里的古筝,床头摆放着《红楼梦》,鞋盒里躺着她的舞鞋,但她已经好长时间没有摸过它们了。她是个有故事的人,经历过很多磨难。但是她童心不泯,反而越发散发出青春活力。她虽然偶尔还会像少女时代多愁善感,但总保持着一副乐观向上的心态。她曾经有过非常爱她的男朋友,但是阴差阳错分手了。时隔多年,再没有遇上令她心动的男人。她并没有灰心,她笑着说该来的总会来。

她严格控制体重,十多年体重一直没多大波动。不过她每年回老家过年之前都要吃胖点,好教老人放心,回京后就又要减到平常的状态,现在的她还在减肥阶段。”

阿樊自述。
一半活在梦想里,一半活在现实里,梦想让我满怀激情,现实使我脚踏实地。我一直就在梦想和现实的纠缠中挣扎抗争着。

放弃了高薪的IT行业,走上了艰辛的寻梦之路,亲朋好友的好心劝阻也让我考虑过是不是值得,但是我最终还是义无反顾的走下去了。三百个日日夜夜,每天都在拷问自己,每夜都在和自己的灵魂对话,努力探寻生命的真谛。

曾经的爱恋已经久远,渐渐的,似乎已经淡忘了爱情的味道。曾经一度常常半夜惊醒,在漆黑的夜晚蜷缩在冰冷的被窝里,细数往日的快乐和酸楚,让泪水恣意泛滥。可我最终硬是把自己给拽出了泥潭:瑜珈让我身心舒畅,舞蹈让我青春飞扬,古筝让我心曲流淌,而书,更是成了我最忠实的朋友,安抚我、激励我、充实我,给我力量和智慧。

时光匆匆的从我指缝间滑过,我伸出手企图阻止它的匆忙脚步,可是它依然不紧不慢的溜走,它毫不留情的染白着父母的鬓发,悄无声息的在我眼尾描上几道细纹,不动声色的改变着每一个人的容颜。我只好决定和时间赛跑,我要好好孝敬父母,好好珍爱自己,也要好好关爱周围的每一个人。

我从来不相信灰姑娘的童话,坚信只有靠自己才能改变命运创造童话。没有白马王子,我依然要做个快乐公主。我深信:酒香不怕巷深,花美不惧园僻。

青春的背影还没远去,曙光就在不远的将来,我一直在孤单中快乐前行着……

时间:2008年04月25日
地点:大北窑小区
摄影:阿三
文字:阿三