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从地坛东门到国子监，从英国大学到中国公司，彭彭一直在几个状态中徘徊。

这个有留学背景的姑娘，正在考虑是否回英国参加毕业典礼。“在中国，可能参加不参加无所谓，但是在国外，非常重视。一家人都穿着正规，隆重地参加毕业典礼。”她说，如果要回去呢，成本好像太高。如果不回去呢，一时又找不了工作。她正在考虑之中。

彭彭大学是英语专业，留学的专业却是Marketing。她有些苦恼的是，理想和现实好像总是差距那么一点点。彭彭认为自己应该朝着艺术方向发展，比如绘画、书法等。但是在她参加绘画学习班的第一天之后，再也没有去过了。她学着家里人的口吻：“学那个干什么，不如用那些时间学习数理化。”那年，她高中一年级。现在呢，她又认为，Marketing是一个很宽的范围，究竟哪一个行业符合她呢？她也搞不清。她还在想，是不是有时间，要找寻一下理想什么的？

她所在的小区在地坛附近，是一个有一些年代的小区中的小区。她说，家里要搬到这里，位置好，房子也大。最近家里来了亲戚，乱七八糟的，否则就让我们去家里拍摄了。她还说，很多人看我都很幸福，我也觉得自己很幸福。独生子女、衣食无忧、留学背景，看起来一帆风顺。她下意识地撩起头发说，但是，我要做什么呢？

彭彭的想法很简单，就是想要拍照。她说，看到相片里自己很漂亮，就很开心，觉得那是一种和平常不同的生活。留学期间，没人给彭彭拍照。她还认为，自己的生活是割裂的，在镜头里想要表现另外一种生活。但她并没说地太多，这镜头要表现的，究竟是何种生活？

她有些紧张的时候，就会下意识地玩弄腰间的饰品。她在拍摄的过程中曾经换过衣服。她紧张的原因是“怕达不到你们的要求”。彭彭有些无意识地说“是的、是的”，“对的、对的”，还会无意识地点头，用力地点头来表示赞同。彭彭觉得自己是一个很好说话的人。但这不意味着没有自己的主见。她还认为，自己不是那种什么话都要给别人说的。

彭彭想要拍的照片是关于“回家的路”。她在车站观望站牌，在报刊亭翻看报纸，在水果摊购买橙子，在小区里漫步。即使她还没有工作，找不到这种感觉，可她在努力地想象，什么是“回家的路”？这条道路，和她心目中的路，究竟有多大差别呢？无人能够猜透。

时   间：2007年06月16日
地   点：    和平里西街
摄   影：   电车男
文   字：    阿三

Face-04 Pengpeng

From the east gate of Temple of Earth to Imperial Academy； from college in UK to company in China, Pengpeng switches in several status.

This girl, who used to study abroad, was wondering if attending graduation ceremony in London. “In China, it doesn’t matter attending or not. But people value it. The whole family wear formal dress and attend the ceremony” she said. The cost was high if attending the ceremony; if not attending it, she can’t find a job for the moment.

Her major in college is English, but studying abroad is marketing. What upsetting her was there was always a gap between ideal and reality. Pengpeng thought she should move forward to art, like painting or calligraphy. She attended painting class for only one day as a sophomore, but then quitted. Her family said it’s no use learning painting, but learning math, physics and chemistry was more useful. But now, she thought marketing is a wide range and she didn’t sure which industry is suitable for her. She wondered if she should take some time to seek for ideal.

The community she lived is near the Temple of Earth. It’s an old community. She said her family was going to move to this community as the location was good and the house was big. Some relatives were in her house and her house was in a mess then. Otherwise she would ask us to take photos there. She said “most people think I’m happy and so do I”. She is the only child in her family and doesn’t need to worry about food and clothing. She’s studied abroad and her life has run smoothly up to now. She lifted her hair up subconsciously and said, “However, what am I going to do?”

What she thought is simply photographing. She said it was happy to see herself beautiful in photos and it seemed to be different from usual life. When studying abroad, no one took photos for her. She thought she wanted to show a different life in camera. But she didn’t talk too much about what kind of life she wanted to express from camera.

She would play with the decoration of her belt subconsciously when she felt nervous. She had changed clothes during photographing. The reason she felt nervous was she was afraid that she didn’t reach our requires. She always said “yeah, yeah” or “right, right”, and nodded subconsciously. She nodded heavily to show agreements. She thought herself a person who is easily persuaded, but didn’t mean she didn’t have her own mind. She also thought she didn’t have to speak every thoughts out.

The theme which Pengpeng wanted to express in the photo is “the road to home”. She looked the station board at bus station; read newspaper in newsstand; brought oranges in fruit stall; rambled in community. She didn’t get a job and couldn’t find the feeling. But she tried to find out what’s the road to home? What’s the difference between this road and the one in her heart? No one knows.

Time： June 16, 2007

Location：West street of Hepingli

Photographer：Trolley Man

Text：A San

Translator: Lucia Zhou

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