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她又去上班了，在一家报社做记者。她不得不去上班，可她一点都不愿意上班。谁愿意上班：无聊、琐碎、毫无意义，人们趋炎附势，利欲熏心。最关键的是，上班不是她想要的生活。

以前认为自己挺牛X的，是一标准文艺女青年，懂得音乐、电影，还经常出离愤怒，对谁爱答不理，总以为能捣鼓一些东西。组过乐队，没几个月散伙，觉得对音乐不在行了。拍过短片，和投资人意见不合，不了了之。还干过别的文艺的事情，现在距离越来越远，自己经过各种碰撞和打击，变得越来越内敛，越来越温和。

这又是一个迷茫的时期，不知道什么才是自己的生活。没有生存基础，想要干点事情都难。要养活自己，只得上班。她是湖北人，读新闻专业，在当地媒体工作一段时间后来北京，继续混在媒体。但在北京两年时间内，上班也不过一年，其余时间出去旅游，做自己事情。结果现在认为自己一事无成，暗自伤心，内省，充满困惑。唯一能安慰的是，这几年把英语学好了，偶尔给人做翻译。

在她工作时期，家里人总是惦记着她，让她邮寄工作的报纸回家，就知道她是否还在媒体上班。也催促结婚，这给她很大压力，一年之内频频见人，差点和一个老男人结婚。

时间：2008年10月11日
地点： 北师大
摄影： 阿三
文字：阿三

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Go to work again. She is a journalist, works for a newspaper office. Everyday she has to go to work , even though she hates that. Boring, trivial, meaningless, people there are timeserving and blinded by gain, no one would like to work. The most important is that working life would never be the one she want.

She thought herself kind of brilliant. A normal artist female youth, has a good taste for music, films. Even be mad at things, ignoring people. Thought of trying out something, she was in a band but last for a few months. After that she felt she’s lost her music touch. She made short films but had disagreement with investor , later on it ended up with nothing definite. She did many other artist things, everything seems so far away. After struggling for so many years, she is now matured and feels more and more mild.

She thought herself kind of brilliant. A normal artist female youth, has a good taste for music, films. Even be mad at things, ignoring people. Thought of trying out something, she was in a band but last for a few months. After that she felt she’s lost her music touch. She made short films but had disagreement with investor , later on it ended up with nothing definite. She did many other artist things, everything seems so far away. After struggling for so many years, she is now matured and feels more and more mild.

When she is working outward, her family miss her so much. They ask her to send home the newspaper she is working for, to make sure that she is still working in medium industry. They urge her to get married soon, which is great pressure for her. She made blind date again and again in one year time, and was almost married with an old man.

Time: Oct 11, 2008

Location: Beijing normal university

Photographer: A San

Text : A San

Translator: Aimen

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